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[RILEY PRESTON ELLIS]

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There had been a lot of pressure on Riley as of late. The pressure was first put on him when he had first gotten back into contact with Julian, who had told him he should reveal himself to his family. Then he had seen Darby in the forest and even though she hadn’t said as much, he could tell by the way she spoke about Damon that she didn’t like that he hadn’t come clean about still being alive. He had talked to Julian again and his ghost friend had once again brought up the subject. Riley knew Jules was right, but he couldn’t bear to see the disappointment in his family’s eyes when they realized what he was and why it was that he was a demon. Failing at being a guardian angel—especially when his charge was Darby—was going to be hell. His father was going to be really pissed when he found out about the whole situation and he just wasn’t ready for that.

But he knew he had to at least come out to the people he was closest to. He would have gone straight to Damon, but he needed to start off slowly. Calan was his next choice. He would have shown one or both of his sisters, too, but he wanted to talk to Calan about some things anyways. For one, he wanted to get some insight about what the hell had happened with him and Julian and if it meant he was gay, or if it was a one time thing. He couldn’t really explain himself to his brother because Damon was a bit of a homophobe and he didn’t want to get those judgmental looks the first time he reconciled with him. Calan was the perfect person to talk to about it because Calan was gay and was in a relationship.

While Riley didn’t understand or like the idea of Calan with Shay, there was nothing he could do about it. The two were in love and that was that. Riley just wished Calan was older or Shay was younger so that their age gap wasn’t so intense. But Riley didn’t want to bring that up. He wanted to forget about Calan’s relationship and why he disliked it so much. Today was about their reunion and maybe some advice on Julian (in Riley’s mind at least).

So he walked down the street towards where Calan lived. He had prepared a little speech in his head so that when he finally saw Calan again he’d be able to say what he wanted to say without revealing everything that had happened after Remy killed him. But before he reached Calan’s place, he saw his cousin walking along the sidewalk. Instinctively Riley hid behind a man and went invisible to the world. A second later he felt stupid and shook his head, mentally hitting himself. He had grown accustomed to disappearing whenever he saw someone he knew from his past life. So he became visible and walked towards Calan. Riley felt his heart pick up speed with nervousness and he clenched his fists by his side.

Finally he got the courage to say, barely audibly, “Calan…”

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[CALAN HUNTER ELLIS]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, width: 380px; border-left: 20px solid #7a9aa9; background-image:url(http://i583.photobucket.com/albums/ss279/legendskseeker/fk5qwnjpg.png); padding-left: 10px; padding-bottom: 20px;] boy with a broken soul, Life slips away and the ghosts come to play, these are hard times for dreamers, and love lost believers “Telling me I don’t need to walk my own dog. Warlock is nuts.” He grumbled to himself as he left the warlock’s home. Calan had only been home from the hospital a little while. Shay was being a mother hen over him and that was fine and all, but even the other doctors gave him the all clear. Perhaps it was a lover thing and as much as Calan loved to be doted on, being denied some simple pleasures were starting to annoy him. However, they weren’t filled with malice like Calan seemed to make them. It was worry for the boy, that’s what drove his mother and lover to be so overly protective over him as of late. He understood, but that didn’t mean he had to like it. Buzz whined softly and licked at his hand, wanting to be petted. Calan stroked the large black dog’s head and sighed a little bit. Shay wasn’t even home at the moment so going home wasn’t something he actually wanted to do. “Are you dying to head back inside or do you want to walk around some more? You’ll need a bath.” The dog growled softly at the idea of a bath and Calan laughed and nodded, turning away from the home for a longer walk. “Just what I was thinking too.” Sometime it amazed him that Shay wasn’t an animal person. He loved to tease the male on hating Buzz but in reality he knew that wasn’t the case. He did put a stop to Calan bringing any more pets home, but that was reasonable in a way. The young firetamer would have to prod him more about it once they lived together full time. While Calan’s feet continued to move, Buzz stopped all together. His head turned behind them instead of in front. Calan grunted once he pulled on the dog’s leash after all the slack had been used. “Hey, what’s up?” He said to the beast as Buzz looked doe eyed behind them. It was like a slow motion movie event. Calan was just about to look up to see what his dog was looking at but his name broke the air. The boy stopped and kept his eyes low, the voice instinctively registering in his mind. Impossible. Buzz’s demeanor suddenly changed from a deer in headlights to a bouncy playful puppy. He only became like that around people he knew, which included Shay, himself and all of his family. It took all the courage the boy could muster to look up and see just who spoke to him. It was Riley. Calan knew the males voice anywhere. Calan didn’t know exactly what to do. The man before him was suppose to be dead, however as of late Calan did meet Julian again, a family friend who he thought was dead too. Julian turned out to be a ghost, so maybe Riley was a ghost? Calan’s strong teenage front was slowly starting to break and the child that was still in him was coming forward. His eyes began to mist a bit and he bit his lower lip. “You can’t… you… I saw them bury you. I saw that.” Which was completely true, he and a lot of family members witnessed Riley’s funeral. By this time, Buzz had wiggled his way out of the boy’s grip and ran over to Riley, whining and licking at him like an old friend. It had to have been Riley otherwise Buzz wouldn’t have done a damn thing. Calan rubbed his eyes and tried something different. Humor, he always could cut awkward moments with that. “If you try to eat my brain I have every right in the world to set you on fire.” He joked and walked closer. 633, ally with riley! Senrkejrn YAY!

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