Post by INDIANA KINLEY ALCORN on Jun 14, 2013 5:37:54 GMT
& I WAKE UP EVERY EVENING
WITH A BIG SMILE ON MY FACE
( and it never seems out of place )
Taking a breathe Indy sighed , why were emotions and shit so complicated why couldn't someone just say I love you and be done with it, but nope it never worked out that simple or well. Things got complicated messy and tiring and all Indy would do in those times is drink. Her eyes would glance around at the park the sun was just starting to set so they had a few hours of daylight left , so Indy would walk around the park hopefully to clear the thoughts that seemed to want to run rampant. She never was good at the girl talk and Wyatt was busy so she couldn't fight it out. Having done a lot of drinking lately that didn't seem like the wisest ideas and she didn't want to hear a lecture from Shay either, So walking was the safest bet to do, hearing the noises of the park Indy would chuckle softly and shake her head. Thoughts going back to her mother and how things use to be before everything changed. She loved her brothers and what they did for her. How they protected her from everything that was dangerous and hurtful. They were the best family Indy could have asked for , she wouldn't trade them for the world.
Or the pack for that matter they showed her a world also of family but at times like this , Indy couldn't help but truly miss her mom. The times when she just wanted someone to curl up with to be told it would be okay. Indy missed that more then she would ever admit out loud. Knowing it was one of the reasons why she was so vulgar crass rough. But , how do you explain that so someone and make them understand at certain times you just felt a pain you couldn't explain because the person who was suppose to be there though all the rough times was gone. Indy didn't want to explain it , it hurt to much to try and explain. So she would grin and bare it all , try to hide it with a smile and her rough attitude. Although threw all of that , even if she did have someone to talk to . She knew that certain parts of her would always be the same , the urge to jump in and ask questions later. Drinks over shopping sex over girl talk , yeah that would never change. Maybe if she could just be a little less rough , naw that was a pipe dream. Why would she need to change , people should just like and accept who she is as hard as it would be to understand.
Pushing aside those thoughts she found a park bench and took a seat , this was a good as place as any to try and gather thoughts. Her fingers idly running across the bench. It was a truly beautiful park , people probably enjoyed spending a lot of time here during the summer. She would need to grab a couple of friends and maybe play a game of football or some shit around there. Yeah that could be good , her eyes would glance into the open field. A weak smile on her face , it hurt sometimes knowing that you would be alone. That the pain you caused your family was all on you , it was a bitter pill to swallow but true none the less. Tilting her head back , her eyes would close as she tried to just take everything in.
WORDS,, Enough
TAGGED,, CHETT/DINO<33
OUTFIT,, CLICK
MUSIC,, The Cab
NOTES,, They will be so cute <3
TEMPLATE,, by PANIC! ITS LAUZ of CAUTION
