pointless of pointlessness

[vlad]

My mom told me today that she and my step-dad are going to take my dog to the vet soon and most likely put to sleep. I started bawling as soon as she said that and just tell her there is nothing wrong with out oldest dog Macy. I'm in total denial. I know I am because she has a list of issues she's dealing with.


I want to keep her alive, but that is so completely selfish of me. She's suffering, I know she is but all the while I think she'll be mad as us for doing it. Crazy right? Me thinking my dog will hate me for ending her pain. I just don't like knowing that I have the power to end her life, it makes me sick. Normally I'd tell a person "oh if they're suffering maybe it's best" but since it's my dog.

She's old. Hell she's a year older than me since I'm 18 and she's 19. I just don't even know.

[JURATE]

Kai honey, if your dog is suffering isn't it best to end the suffering? If you keep her alive, then she'll be in pain and she'll only have bad memories. I know the position you're in, I also have a dog who's 14 years old so he's really old, and he's also really sick. He has a bad leg, and he whines a lot in pain. I love him so much! I don't even get to see him all that much, but I know that my goodbye will come sooner than I thought and I personally would like the option of putting him down then one day my grandma calling me telling me that he died because I wasn't there to take care of him. Think of it as a blessing, to you and to her because in the end it is the right, painless thing to do.

.... I hope you're okay, and we all just love you so much!