what the heart wants `` syd

[JUDAS LEVI SAGAR]

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this is my secret,

Judas was pretty sure the water was his favourite place to go to. Well, when there was no one there anyway. He had always chosen the most remote of spots, making sure that there was not a living soul in sight before he let even a drop touch his skin. It had always been like this. Of him enjoying the water without people witnessing what he truly was. The fact that Judas even grew a tail was revolting, but it made it even more so because it was scaly. He was basically a fish, and he had hated it from when he had hit puberty. Honestly, he was haunted by his parent's faces filled with disgust, and now he didn't have them anymore. Not them, not his brother, merely because he was a fish. What a great life right? Wrong. He had always felt so alone, isolate with this curse that was a scaly tail, until he met Lauren.

She was a mermaid trying to convince him how great his tail was. Whatever. It wasn't, not to him anyway. He remembered the shock of her coming down, and he would have hid if he hadn't been frozen in shock of seeing another person. Before he could hide his tail, it was too late, and he was expecting a look of disgust and fear to cross her features. After all, he was a bloke with tattoos, messed up hair and a seaweed coloured tail. Now that was a shock and a half. But then he soon found out that the two were not so different after all. She seemed to enjoy being what she was. Seemed to love every second, but at any minute that Judas himself had tried to enjoy the feeling of basically being a fish, the faces of his parents swum before his blue eyes and he recoiled against any thoughts that made his tail anything less than inhumane. It was not something that was supposed to be there, his parents had as much as told him that, they even sent someone to look at him. He felt dirty, unnatural, a freak.

With a sigh, he was approaching the water now. He looked around to make sure that no one was there before walking closer. He was already removing his shoes, his trousers, and his shirt. He could imagine the sight. A guy stripping to go for a swim. Completely innocent and natural. But now. He moved slowly towards the water, taking completely measured steps, before he was at the waters edge. He took in a deep breath, and put one foot in the water, quickly followed by the second. It took all but a few seconds to transform, and while the first transformation had been painful, this one was merely uncomfortable. But he felt comfortable after the transformation, as if he was free to be himself and he loved the fact. Apart from the tail of course. He sighed, looking down, before shifting his body so he could take off if even for a short swim.

TAGGED: SYD , NOTES: Hope this is okay! Sorry it's short..

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[laurenhallie]

Lauren woke up from a soft murmur of singing from her mother and smiled as the light shown in her room, she was only 14 years old then and knew darn well what she was and what she wanted to be all along. Waking up out of bed she glanced in the mirror as her hair was partly wavy and frizzy she gave it a good shake and slipped on her Little Mermaid slippers tapping her silver locket around her neck. Turning slightly she noticed the perfect water hitting the waves of the ocean and walked over to her other window glancing down at her small pool. Remembering the last time she swam out in the open left her with a small shake for her not very fond of the memory. It was a cloudly day and she wanted to get her Teal tail out in the water before any early risers would surf or go for a swim.Letting her feet touch the cool water she felt herself sitting down and a few moments later her tail lightly bating the sand. While she was out far she noticed a semi-large boat and began to swim away from it but not until she was turned upside down and her tail was caught on something -rope- struggling to get away she knew what the men wanted, to either hurt her or worse. Luckily while the men were distracted she got free and swam as fast as she could home never swimming in the open again. Her eyes shot open and she found herself dazed as the memories flooded back into her head. Sighing heavily once more she ran a hand through her wavy hair and propped herself out of the bed; She knew her place was good for her which was where she could be her true self. Suddenly her face turned into a grimace as the mental picture of Judas went through her, She knew he was there but then again maybe he wasn't seeming to love his tail as always, to him it was though a curse he had to live with but her mission was to convince him that there was nothing wrong with having a tail and it was a blessing never a curse. Sighing with a relief she noticed another human stuck with horror on her face she tensed but not before seeing that cloud of hair ontop of the man's head and she knew just then by the tattoos that that was no other than Judas. Slipping her shorts off and pacing towards the water she stuck one toe into the clear water she waved slightly at Judas and felt her legs slide down into her tail a glistening teal color setting upon them.

Tag: Jurate
Note: Its fine Mine is a bit short too.

[JUDAS LEVI SAGAR]

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this is my secret,

He had always loved it. The way the water felt on his skin, like the softest of caresses, but still ever s cool to the touch. It made him feel alert, alive, merely because the water was so so much colder than bath water. Yet it felt more real, more fresh, and the only thing that he actually enjoyed about being what he was, was the ability to breathe under water for a long time. He could swim down the bottom of the water for what felt like ages, just taking it all in, not needing to breath because for someone like him, basically a fish, the water felt like the air that he breathed in while he was out of the water. He also used this ability to breathe under water to think. It had always felt like a second home, even when the merperson gene had not kicked in, his favourite past time would have been just going swimming in the lake with his father. But he tried to think as little of them as he could, even though he missed them, and he missed his brother, they had found him a freak, and rather than loving and accepting their son for who he was, they were gonna give him up for dissection. And that hurt. A lot.

So now, he was sitting under water, so he had missed the other person. However, now he wanted to forget, so now he was swimming back up, clouded by the faces of his parent's, and the ultimate disgust in their faces. Sometimes he felt like crying. Sometimes he wished to go to a scientist so that they could cure him, and that he could go back to his parents and just say; mum dad I'm not a freak anymore, but I'm not coming back. Because they didn't want him when he had a tail, so why should they want him now. Even seven years later, when Judas is twenty years old, he can not forgive his parents for not standing by him. For ignoring him and making him feel like someone that has never belonged. He crashed out of the water, droplets running down his reddish brown hair, his face, his neck and chest, and he felt the air hit him right int he face and he loved that feeling too. It made him feel alive. It made him feel awake and alert.

He opened his blue eyes to the sight of Lauren. Of course she would be here. Of course she would come just at the time that he felt like being alone, to feed him crap about how special he was to have such a gift as being a merman. He sighed, but in all truth, he was kind of glad to see her. It was like she was his best friend now, only caring about him, and he was glad for such a person in his life. He smiled, swimming towards the girl. She had always been pretty, he had noticed that from the very first time he saw her, and she grew prettier every day. She was lucky to love who she was, to have her parents love her just because she was her. She wasn't human, but she could have an easy and carefree life. He ran a hand down his face, to just clear the water that was running from his hair into his eyes. He smiled at her, because really, he was happy she was here. "Lauren, can't find a better spot for swimming with the fishes?" He ask, a smile tracing his lips, teasing her a little, like he always did.

TAGGED: SYD , NOTES: xD

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[laurenhallie]

Breathing underwater since she had the ability to in her mermaid gene Lauren dug her tip of her tail under the cool sand feeling the touch and loving the feeling she had a tail. freezing for a moment before concentrating she began to think of her father and how she never meet him only having small pictures and knew that his name was James she frowned at the spot and thrust herself upward after a small wave came by. Flipping her Brunette hair above the surface she let the waves carry her to shore and slid her tail over towards Judas who looked at her with those innocengt blue eyes. Shaking her hair slightly letting the small droplets tumble to the cool sand she changed her position to a better comfortable one and swam towards him flickering her tail teasingly at him.

Lauren knew he had it rough with his parents and how they didn't entirely accept him all that much. Besides her mother Judas was the only close one to her and she was glad to have him around when she needed him.

Lauren, can't find a better spot for swimming with the fishes?". was his short response. and knew he was only teasing when he turned his lips into a goofy smile like he had done so many times. Flicking water with her tail towards him she stuck her tounge out and laughed" I prefer the fishies over you Judas". Giving him a slight serious face and then quickly shook her head only merely teasing him.

[JUDAS LEVI SAGAR]

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this is my secret,

Judas loved the relationship he had with Lauren. It was so easy, so carefree, someone who he could be his true self around. Tail or no tail. It was a nice feeling, when you didn't have to pretend that you were human every single day, and that a mere droplet of water would turn you into a fish. He njoyed the teasing between the two of them, and the frindly rivarly that had when talking about being a mer person, because really, he had his opinions of the whole thing as did she. Judas also liked the fact that he got to get to know another person. Living in the dumps with the guys when he was thirteen, wasn't a time for getting to know people, even now in the appartment with the guys, he never aactually spoke to them a lot about himsel or themselves. Yet, he spent a lot of time with this girl and he was really enjoying that feeling of freedom, and caring, because they were friends now, really close friends, and he loved seeing her face every day.

If he wasn't gay, he figured that Lauren would be the person he would ultimately go for. She was lovely, and caring, and he loved her like a sister. It wasn't a replacement for his brother, but he was still glad to have that sibling type of feeling. He smiled as she teased him back. See, it was so easy with her. He pouted mockingly, "Oh, you loved me really don't you Lauren?" He asked, blinking at her in a cute puppy dog look. She stuck her tongue out at him, and splached water on his face. Her laugh was contagious, so Judas felt him self laughing back at her. "Very cheeky. It would have more effect if I wasn't wet." He grinned, knowing that he was being childishly right. He skimmed his long fingers over the top of the water. He absolutely loved it. It made him feel un caged, the water, and the company, it was nice to just be Judas for once, Judas with a tail, and only see love on the other person's face, and not the disgust that haunted his dreams.

TAGGED: SYD , NOTES: Bleh I know, short.. :\

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[laurenhallie]

Lauren laid her head back onto the rocks ashore behind them and breathed in deeply taking everytihng in because it was not everyday you would get to spend with someone you truly care about be like this; and Judas in fact was someone she really cared about and well he was a brother to her in so many ways. She never felt any romantic relation with him for she knew that he was gay,but secretly Judas would be her type he's loving caring and sweet and he really knows her down to the core. But Lauren however didn't even care about what he was; she felt bad for him in a way not only did his parents not accept him but deep down she saw him as just another boy with fins and a tail.

Rolling her eyes towards Judas she sighed in defeat and nodded"Oh yes Judas your puppy dog face gets me all the time".She said and actually meant it. Sliding down towards the water more she looked through it carefully and picked up a beautiful shell picking it up she examined it and ran her fingers down the sharp edges grimacing a bit and cursing under her breath her hand felt hot as blood trickled down her finger;not that bad at all. Putting the shell quickly back into the spot where she found it she dragged her hand over the water watching it turn a murky color from her finger.

Tagged: Jurate Notes: Its fine mine is suckish.

[JUDAS LEVI SAGAR]

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this is my secret,

It had be so easy. Before someone hits puberty is always is so easy. Nothing to worry about, not a care in the world while you play in kindergarten. He loved it there. Meeting people for the first time ever, and five minutes later becoming best friends. It was simple and uncomplicated. This time with Lauren reminded him of that, because she never judged, and they always had a nice laugh. He knew a lot about her, her personality, her traits and dreams and desires. She would tell him while they were swimming, or were out getting a coffee or what not. The girl was a big dreamer, and Judas sometimes wished he could dream big too. But having lived at the dumps from when he was thirteen, the apartment with the guys was a dream in itself, and so, Judas was able to appreciate the simple pleasures in life, and not everything that is big and over the top Though he knew he can't judge either.

Judas knew it. His puppy dog look worked all the time on Lauren, and it was fun to make her do what he wanted. A grin spread across his features as he then watched her pick up the shell. It was truly beautiful, a mixture of bright and vibrant colours. But it was sharp too, and he knew that because Lauren had cut her finger. He frowned. "How do you manage to cut yourself with a shell?" It was truly a mystery to him, because Judas has always been careful not go get cut by anything. It was like human nature. Not that he was one anyway. He moved, so he would swim in front of Lauren, a mischievous grin on his face, as the murky red water from her finger evaporated around them. "I'll race you. Whoever gets to the other end quicker, is the winner, and loser buys the other coffee." He said, always up for a little competition, "I'll even give you five seconds head start, cause you're so small." He grinned and winked, because they both knew that Judas was like a giant compared to her petite frame.

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[laurenhallie]

Lauren thought back to the time when she first met Judas, no worries just having fun was the only rule back when they were only little tots. Lauren wasn't sure if he was such a big dreamer but she definitely had her high hopes, dreams and desires. But in fact she also wanted to teach Judas the ways of the water how it was serene and calm.She loved him but she wished he would be a bit more apprecitative of having a tail and his beautiful form as well.

Lauren watched as he frowned; looking down a wave of embarrasment came over her face"Im prone to accidents I'm a goof and a klutz at that".When he asked her fro a little competition she looked behind him seeing the distance. Crossing her arms and frowning they both knew that she wouldn't stand a chance against his giant composure.Looking at him in gratitude for the 5 extra seconds she flipped into air like a dolphin and smiled into the sunlight hitting the water and thrusting her tail forward as fast as she could but keeping a good pace.

Getting distracted a bit from the fishes who swam under her she waved her tail at him and continued her journey to the other side without looking back she knew Judas was trailing behind her but not for long.

[JURATE]

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