HARCOURT, sierra aria

[aqua11]

everything i've ever known
has been a long twisted string of lies.

SIERRA ARIA HARCOURT
five hundred ninty-nine. female. pansexual. demon. neutral. lindsay ellingson. aqualicious.

[JUNE 18, 1413]

the day i was born. my parents were both fallen angels, so naturally, i was born one also. i was raised as an only child, considering the next two of my potential siblings didn't make it past six months old. despite this, my parents managed to raise me in a loving environment, although it wouldn't be long before i would meet one of my best friends. lief snow was his name, although i didn't find out until way later that that was his bastard name. the two of our families were very close at the time. lief had a lot of siblings, some of which i'd hang out with if i ever went over to visit his family. if i had to sum up my childhood, i'd probably call it average, almost boring, even. i wasn't ever really involved in too many things as far as my parents were concerned, and i only had the siblings of lief's family to keep me company.

[JANUARY 14, 1430]

lief's sixteenth birthday. because i was older than lief by a few months, i had to wait for his birthday to come around before i would hear the news that the two of us were to be engaged. considering how close our families were at the time, the joining of the two of us wasn't surprising in the least. but i was ecstatic that i'd be marrying my best friend. i wasn't ever sure if lief was as happy as i was about the details of our marriage. he seemed to be pleased with it outwardly, but i was never able to actually ask his opinion. i just assumed that because i was a female, i was just naturally more excited than he was. despite my excitement, my father had made it clear (to me, anyway) that he wasn't entirely happy about me being engaged to him, but that the decision had been made for the betterment of both of our families. this came as a shock to me, as my father had always been the nicest man i'd ever known. but i didn't say anything about it to anyone else. my father's secret never left my lips. besides, i didn't want my husband-to-be to know that his father-in-law didn't like him very much! because that would have made family get-togethers that much more awkward. but the longer lief and i spent time together, the more i realized that i was falling in love with him. the two of us would have been perfect together. everything was perfect. that is, up until the 'accident'.

[OCTOBER 31, 1433]

.....the day lief died. at the time, my father had told me it was an accident. that my fiance had died in some kind of training lesson. that someone had slipped and lief had been stabbed. apparently, the blood-loss was too much, and the life left his eyes in a matter of minutes. i was devastated. i was completely and utterly crushed. i cried for a long time after that, knowing that my life, for that moment, had been destroyed. not only was i not getting married to the man i'd fallen so completely in love with... but i never got a chance to tell him that i was carrying his child.

[MARCH 17, 1439]

up until this time, i couldn't help but to feel remorse over how i'd lost control of my own life. every time i took a look at my infant son, i couldn't help but to think back on all the fond memories lief and i shared and how he would never be able to spend time with his own child, nor would his child ever get to meet his father. magnus, as i had come to name him, was symbolic of his father, as the name itself means greatness, and lief was the greatest man i'd ever known.

the child was born with lief's eyes, which made him all the more difficult for me to look at. i spent most of my early twenties crying whenever i had to take care of magnus. i'm sure he didn't appreciate his mother reacting in such a way all the time. because of course, he'd done nothing wrong. he didn't even know why i was crying. he spent most of his very early childhood with his grandparents, since both of them could see how much of a failure i was at being a mother. of course, i could see clearly that my father was upset that magnus even existed. he'd been unhappy that lief and i were even getting married, so i'm not surprised that he was pissed when he found out that i was pregnant after lief had passed. unfortunately i wouldn't find out why this was until much later.

and so, march seventeenth came around, and very strange news reached my ears. i was twenty-six at this time, about five and a half years after my fiance had passed. i had returned indoors from working in the fields outside when i overheard my parents discussing something privately. their voices were nothing more than harsh whispers, which alerted me that they didn't want anyone to hear what they were saying. and as i was about to take my leave, i heard something that caught my attention. they were talking about lief. and what i heard come from my father's mouth ripped me apart.

lief's death hadn't been just an accident. it had been a planned murder, an assassination. apparently my father, who had played the role of nice guy whenever lief was around, was the man who had my fiance murdered. and to top it all off, he lied to me about it. i wondered what had made them speak on this topic, and just before i was about to jump into their conversation, crying and heartbroken, my father explained to my mother about how lief had been spotted at his family home. this is how i heard about lief's continued existence, how he'd stayed on earth to haunt and get revenge on his own family. he was a ghost who'd been tied to this world with unfinished business.

and i was going to find him. with my heart slowly blackening with hate and distrust, i made this decision at the same time i decided that my parents didn't deserve to live anymore. not after what they'd done to an innocent human being.

[DECEMBER 29, 1441]

just a few days before the new year, i set the date for my parents' assassination. i arranged for magnus, who was around eight at the time, to be kept in a place where i knew he'd be safe. of course, i'd contacted hunters and told them about my parents' place of residency. i lied about my relation to them, only telling the hunters that i knew they weren't human and that i'd heard from their own mouths that they'd had a human boy killed. i knew already, of course, that the hunters weren't going to be able to kill my parents, as they were fallen angels and only another angel could kill them. but this was all a part of my plan.

it had been a simple, quiet day. my parents were arranging for the new year, having invited a few of their friends to come over to their house to bring in january first like they did any other year. and the best part, was that they didn't even see it coming. i'd told them i was to go out and find some fresh fruit for the table. when i left, i met up with the hunters and then watched as they broke into my home and attacked the two of them with their weak knives and swords. i 'returned' home then, to find them bound and gagged, with nothing to do with themselves as the hunters mercilessly tried to slay them. i pushed them aside, and before i ripped my parents' hearts out, crying hysterically, i told them how much i hated them, how much pain they'd caused, and how much they'd ruined my life for the sake of their own personal desires.

[MARCH 2, 1450]

magnus and i fled the town after that. little did i know that while the hunters cleaned up their mess, they'd caught wind of the fact that lief was still alive -- one of them had seen the ghostly boy during one of his trips to see his family. i had no idea that i had started the feud between him and the hunters until much, much later.

but cue march second, the day that magnus and i moved into our new, small home on the edge of england. i wanted our son to grow up healthy and happy and live a normal life. but he was a hybrid, a combination of a fallen angel and a human, and if anyone had ever found out, he'd be targeted and ridiculed. so i had him keep it a secret, telling him that no one could know about what he was. magnus had grown old enough at this point to start wondering why he didn't have a father figure. i was never able to tell him, as the thought of talking about lief either brought me to tears or caused the rage deep within me to bubble up to the surface. but having a bastard child and still being unwed was frowned upon, so i told magnus something of a half-assed story about how we'd gotten married, but lief had just run away. and while it pained me to tell such lies about my ex-fiance, i did it all for magnus' sake. i didn't want the kids he was friends with to know he was a bastard child.

[AUGUST 17, 1673]

two hundred and twenty-three years later, things hadn't changed much. magnus and i moved from place to place every so often as to not be detected by humans. once magnus was in his early twenties, he'd stopped physically aging and i knew it wouldn't be long before someone noticed. we lived like this for many years, moving from place to place. but the sad thing was, i never was able to locate lief again. because we had to move to a different place so frequently, i was never in an area long enough to search everywhere for his earth-bound soul. this only furthered to worsen my sad case of depression. i'm sure magnus probably blames himself for the way i've acted around him and i will always regret that.

[AUGUST 21, 1789]

these last hundred or so odd years were definitely not my finest. sickened by myself for still haven't not found lief, my entire purpose for living at that point, i returned back to my hometown with magnus, only to find that the pitiful remains of my original household had been remodeled, so to speak, and a new family currently resided there. times had changed, and i knew for a fact that none of lief's family members were still alive. but alas, there was no sign of my ghostly ex-fiance. nothing to even suggest that he'd even existed in the first place. in my attempt to draw him out, i ended up starting something of a war between my hometown and the neighboring village. i murdered a family of three on the other side of the village and had the blame placed on the father of the family who was currently living in my old home. sounds awful, i know. but at that time, i was desperate. the commotion between the involved parties ended up turning into a mini - massacre of sorts, given that most of the men who ended up fighting each other were killed. after all was said and done, my former home was destroyed and the deaths of many, many people were on my hands. not only did my plan not work, as lief never appeared to me, but i would find out a little later that with my failed efforts to see my ex-fiance, i had transitioned into a demon.

[SEPTEMBER 1, 1800]

i wanted to tell magnus about what had happened to be and the village and how i'd become a demon, but i just didn't know how to break it to him. because how awful would it look that a fallen/human hybrid was the son of a demon? it just sounded strange and i knew too many people would think it odd, also. besides, i didn't want to taint my son's image of me. i didn't want him to think of me and know that i'd killed nearly a hundred people or that i'd lied about being married to his father. it would have been too much for the two of us to handle...it would have only caused drama between the two of us. he was the only one i had left.

but up until the 1800s, there still hadn't been any sign of lief. and while the people of the era celebrated the bringing in of the new century, i lamented in my quarters, wondering what would happen to me if i'd never see him again. what if he moved on? that would have meant that he didn't have any desire to see me. then perhaps he was just wandering around with no where to go? either way, i wasn't happy thinking about which was the right answer.
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[DECEMBER 24, 1959]

christmas eve wasn't any different for us this year than it had been any other year in the last couple hundred years. magnus and i never really spent the holidays together, as i was unhappy being around him. he tended to spend it with whoever he might have been seeing at the time, or perhaps he was at the bars. i didn't really care. but it was around this time that i decided that i needed to move on. i'd spent the better half of five hundred years searching for someone who had been 'killed' back in the 1400s -- wasn't it time to get my life together? i certainly thought so. and so, magnus and i moved to the united states, somewhere where i could be as far away from england as possible. magnus came with me, and together we chose a small home in upstate maine.

[NOVEMBER 23, 2012]

of course, my new life wouldn't last. i should have known that was going to be the case. magnus somehow caught wind of a man named lief snow that was living in the town over from ours, called manuka. i couldn't believe it. was lief really here? after all this time, he finally decided to show his face? if anything, i was shocked that the two of us had ended up in the same state, let alone this close together. and before i could tell him otherwise, magnus was off to find his father, but he was out searching for him for all the wrong reasons. as for myself? i haven't gone to see him yet. but of course once magnus gets back, i'll learn of all the details before i try to reunite with my lost love at long last...


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